You’ve always wanted something.
When you said, “Ma ma,” you got your mother’s attention. When you were held, and you grabbed her ears, nose, lips, you held her interest. When you smiled, you created a unique desire: “I must keep this little one safe!” When you cried, you called her to action. “Oh, baby, what’s wro-o-ong?!”
And you’re still doing it. Just the adult version of that. firstname.lastname@example.org